Friday, June 25, 2004

Whoops!

Whoops!
By Christabel Germain

Driver:
“Impending
No alternative routes
Maximum or minimum
Milliseconds for a deadline”

Passenger:
“Impending
Nothing to do
Hold on and wait
Milliseconds, all is revealed”

CRUNCH
Not of potato chips
Or freshly fallen snow
Metal against metal
Control ripped from humans grasp.

One wild ride later
Damage assessed
Blood contained
Bones intact
Minds;
only time will tell

Souvenir

Souvenir
By Christabel Germain

Skin on fire,
Flames of remembrance,
Flickers of the future
Smoke curling round me
Inescapable

Heart racing
Neck in neck across the finish line
Photo finish
Beats a tattoo against my ribs
Breathtaking

In the darkness behind closed lids
Images flash of
Lips
Eyes
Arms
Toes
Transport me

Warm.
Dark.
Moonlight through the glass pane
Illuminate the rock against which
Rolling waves erupt.

Fix a portrait in me
Lines memorized
Blindfolded; vision remains whole
Etched on the surface of my skin





Unspoken

Unspoken
By Christabel Germain

Words gone missing.
So much to say.
Maybe take a picture?

Capture the uncapturable
Find the hidden treasure
Discover a forgotten land

Desire
Longing
Passion

Ears long
For the tongue’s
Sweet
Whisperings

Flip open the photo album
It’s obvious there
No barrier of white pearls to pass
No fear to overcome

Music plays havoc
Silence haunts
Dreams are tied
Two lives

Unfullfilled

Unfulfilled
By Christabel Germain

Longing
Desire
All spin round
Eagerly I grasp out,
Longing to touch,
Change dreams to reality

The storm rages on
Wind whips me pushing me in directions I hadn’t planned.
The view is amazing,
but now that I’ve had a taste I want more
Not satiated
Pinning
Shadows dance on the wall taunting me
I wish to follow

AND

Yet fear is there
Dark and ominous
Threatening to tear photograghs off the wall
Rip pages out of my favorite story
History dribbles from its teeth
Perception hides under its dirty nails
Lies unspoken hidden in its eyes

Courage now dear
“nothing ventured—
nothing gained”
Adventure waits behind fear’s threats
One step at a time
Double or nothing

I’ll hold your hand

Uncharted

Uncharted
By Christabel Germain

Dreams haunt
Truth is silent
Hearts yearn for knowledge
Mind is willed silent

For a glimpse of the future
To know what follows
Silence roars loudly

To inquire means
Knowledge imparted
Positive or negative
Spun off the axis
Destruction ensues.

Truth may yet be unknown
Silence may be uncertainty
To press for knowledge
Could push the axis off even further

Impossible task
Waiting
In a land of unknown hearts
Much is required of heart, body, mind, and soul.

Is the cost too high?
Should the task be abandoned?
Can this course be altered?






Then Suddenly

Then Suddenly
By Christabel Germain

Lightning dance intricate steps,
Across the darkness of my mind.

Its light briefly illuminates,

Shadows,
Of friends I knew long ago.

Silhouettes,
Of places I visited before.

A switch is flipped,
Dusk falls.
A faded memory
Imprinted on my brain.

Wishing to ignite the shadows,
Wanting to brighten the silhouettes
My fingers twitch in anticipation.
An empty surface waits.

Inconceivable

Inconceivable
By Christabel Germain

Standing on the edge of uncertainty

Stranded

By selfish desires

Seeking

For companionship

Struggling

To float an iron battleship
In a bathtub

Assistance required

Stammering

With indecision

Shadowed

By a pleasant past

Stiffly

Utters words

Hot water
Trickles
Down to a familiar path

Sudden detour taken
Round the corner
Of upturned lips

Rude Awaking

Rude Awaking
By Christabel Germain

Some stranger is disappearing down
The street with my memory of you face.

A thief.
Had slipped in,
Uninvited,
And unnoticed.

A shadow cast across
The wall,
Filled with happy photographs
Of you and me.

Crept behind us in every room
Of our house.

I never saw him there.
Or heard his
Feet on the stair.

Blinded by a box,
He stole your hand.
Deafened by volume control.
He led you out.

The crash of the
Door altered me some
And I looked up,
But, the shadow was gone.

From alley to avenue
I searched.
You, I could not find.

It was only then that I realized,

I had a hand in your hurting
The white house sits as still as
A vessel at anchor, lighted rooms

Emptied of you belongings

Reflection

Reflection
By Christabel Germain

Fixing a loose strand of auburn silk,
Together we turn
I,
Fountains of ink,
Ulcers of stress,
And barren white sheets.
She;

The hills roll soft and gentle.
Swaying emerald, chartreuse, jade, lime, and viridian.
Stately trees
Stretch their fingers toward the aqua sky.

A ray of sunlight,
Reflects off the armor
Of an aging dragon;
Watching over the young
As they wrestle in fields of violets.

The clicking of iridescent wings
Small winged creatures dart in and out,
Between droplets of water,
That lazily drip from moss-encrusted rocks.

The silk has again escaped
I return to the mirror,
She bends on her knees,
Peering into the silver circle pool.

Restoring order to the unruly locks,

She returns to scampering barefoot,
By the aging dragon; to dance round the stately trees,
Past the rock and winged creatures.

The wind will reach out his finger,
Urging that wayward strand to rebel
And fall recklessly over our eye.

Forcing me to turn repeatedly,
From my mountains of books,
To the silver circle pool.
To patiently,
Tend the capricious silk.

Midnight

Midnight
By Chirstabel Germain

Black with snatches of white,
Soft and gentle,
With concealed impotent claws.

Two yellow eyes
Peer at me,
His mouth opens
And he cries

I do not speak his language,

He slinks away,
Tail down
Slowly he cocks his
Head back towards me.
Yellow eyes,
Sad and distant.
He pleads.

Haunted

Haunted
By Christabel Germain

Pain
Tears

Unwanted

Help
Prisoner
Deep inside me

Out! Out! I scream
But I don’t have the key

Someone else holds it,
Dangles it,
Taunting me

Unexpected hand reaches out
A candle in a dark room
Warm, inviting, willing

But, best of all a key

Lost without you

Lost without you
By Christabel Germain

You haunt me now more than ever.
Familiar scents waft in rooms you have never been in
Images flash between blinks.

Touch

Gone

Never to return

Pictures, records and fleeting memories
Piled in the corner

Quiet moments
Are loud with silence

Craving comfort and compassion

To feel unassuming arms enfold and hold

No WORDS

No ACTIONS

Just a presence

Return to me

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By Christabel Germain

Don’t stop
Don’t apologize
Relax

I’m here now
Tell me a story

Epiphany streams
Between billows above

Illuminating small patches
Of harvested land

Darkness gathers
And a small tempest builds

Pelted,
Splattered,

Legs cycle
Impact no longer felt

Flying without wings

Fear

Fear
By Christabel Germain

Talk of courage,
Bravery,
Strength,
Guts.

Face to face in battle
Soldiers back down
Turn coat,
Coward,
Chicken.

Scripts practiced
Lines memorized
Stage fright
All’s forgotten

Heart aches
Soul burdened
Words to speak
Tears to cry

Be my strength
History repeat not

Bleeding hearts

Bleeding hearts
By Christabel Germain

At a crossroad
Both ends unknown

One currently shaded by dark clouds
Threatening imminent storms
False rays of sunshine
Promise brighter days

But they’ve lied before,
How can they be trusted again?

Human hearts forgive and forget
Stupidly we trust in hope

At a fork
Both ends unknown

The second path, bathed in bright blue skies
Light fluffy clouds promise nothing
True rays of sunshine
Promise adventure congested days

Is there room on that path for me
Will sacrifices be made?

Human hearts grasp to promise
Stupidly we chase things we cannot possess

At an intersection
Unable to take a step

Both paths, laced in fear
Eyes clouded with tears, blink back more
Longing for warmth of the sun
Nothing is promised.

Can a heart heal?
Or a mind forget?

Human hearts scar, but bravely beat on
Dreaming of,
A rock less path and unending sunshine
Reality subjects them to tests and trials.

Strengthening, teaching and preparing

Competition

Competition
By Christabel Germain

What if;
Reality doesn’t prevail?

What if;
Reality is surreal?

Effort is piled up so high
Investment is monumental

In reality,
Risk is inconsequential,
In my heart,
Risk is behomothic.

Fear wells up inside
A flood threatening
To ruin all

At the edge of a dream
Gate is open
What happens if I can’t walk through
Or
I get to the doorway an my name isn’t on the list

Desire indescribable,
Failure a potential

Quaking
I face the challenge
Failure won’t win today.

Alcatraz

Alcatraz
By Christabel Germain

Tears
Locked up
Held prisoner
Screaming for freedom
Louder they cry

System overload
All usual outlets blocked
Detours taken
Lost in a predicted wilderness

Fear creeps in
And keeps
Tears company

Her sentence almost fulfilled
Only one question remains
Who holds the key
To Tear’s cell door

Ahhhhh……

Ahhhhh……
by Christabel Germain

Water.
Warmed,
By the suns fingers,
That pokes and prods,
Into the depths of the,
Murky pools that;
Babbles,
Eagerly down to the streambed,
Rushing to tell stories to the patient ear,
That listens,
As water;
Giggles,
Tickled by the grass that lazily bends in the wind,
Barely etching the waters skin as it;
Spinning,
Tossed about by rocks,
And pebbles that lie,
In its way.
It laps at my toes.

A Room with a View

A Room with a View
by Christabel Germain

Four walls,
Constant and conctrictive hold me here,
Darkness concealing their number.
Ceiling crumbles
With the touch of my fingers,
It falls dry and dusty.
Brushing past my skin
Dampness
The floor beneath me,
Wet and soggy,
Saturated with unspeakable horrors.
My pillow,
Sharply angled granite.

There’s a door I know,
I just can’t find it.

A crack of light,
Breaks into my prison,
Biting into my skin.

A corner of a building,
A screen for which shadows to play.

The branches of a tree,
Budding with spring.
Green with summer.
Empty with fall.
White with winter.

Through this crack,
My world.

Night falls…
Darkness

Four walls,
I think.
Ceiling crumbles
With the touch of my fingers.
Dampness
The floor beneath me
One brightly colored leaf,
Escaped form that world into mine.

The Way it Goes

The Way it Goes
by Christabel Germain

Leaves brightly painted,
Red, yellow, orange

Eased from the grasp of the tree’s fingers
Captured by a breeze.

Flirtatious.
Careless.

The winded carries the
Painted beauty…..

Down
Down
Then up
And
Down

Until it is dropped or lost
By the rambunctious breeze.

There it lays.
Pounded by the rain.
Covered in snow.
Squished by a boot.

Time passes.
Decay.

Spring comes
and the tree’s toes
gathers up the painted beauty’s remains

And at the fingertips a new leaf.